I help Freedom-Seekers to end their obsession with food and diet, so they begin to feast on their life and feel confident and healthy in their body.
Most of us were conditioned directly or indirectly by around us. We had become so loyal to a set of beliefs, past stories, voices we internalized,and became prisoners to a certain identity. We have been taught to stay sheltered and safe(literarily my case during war) We have been loyal to a set of Conditional Okay-ness : You are only okay if you get everything right - Be perfect - You are only okay if you hide your feelings from others- Be strong, and so on Don't be selfish, Please others, Don’t be Important, Don’t cry, Try hard, Hurry up.
Such beliefs taught us not to own our space, not to take our time to slow down and relax and forbid us to self-indulge. We spent very little time in our bodies, and detached from our hearts. We have survived but we disconnected from what is really to feel alive and to live fullest rich life . We became consumed and used by what we are hunger for, and distanced ourselves from what we are truly hungry for; our own true essence.
This used to be true to me. For years, I rode the hunger roller-coaster and craved for enough-ness. It was never enough. I craved delicious food but was either depriving or binging. I craved a skinny fit body while draining my energy at the gym for hours . I desperately wanted to be thin and believed if only my legs were smaller and if I can fit in size 0 or 2 jeans ,then all my problems would disappear and happiness would be mine. I was dieting all the time and when I reach my "happy weight" my focus continued to search for another weight or another source of happiness. I longed for genuine friendships, craved meaningful profession, diluted fun, and ignored stillness - I yearned for so long to let go of the should’s and dissolve in just good enough. My belief was that there is always lack and everything that I am , everything that I am doing in the present won't save me.